Post 44
Sorry folks.
Didn’t feel like writing today. Or yesterday. Or the day before yesterday. Finished up some med classes and am just about finished with my study guide, Emergency Care and Transportation of the Critically Sick and Injured.
We’re doing emergency triage and mass casualty response and I have to say…I love this. It’s terrible, but I dig it. I like the HAZMAT response, SWAT response, special rescue conditions, all of it. I’m in it. Can’t wait to get out there and start saving some people. Scored pretty damn high on all the assessments so far, which makes total sense. It’s interesting to compare this week with my results from last week (pediatrics, gag). I’m just no good with small humans. But this…the booms, and the mass death, and the teamwork, and the weirdness…this I like. I’m genuinely considering quitting my engineering job to just work as a paramedic. I really enjoy the classes and as soon as I can get out in the world for some field work, I’m interested to see how much I stay interested.
Next week is terrorism and disaster management, which I will also enjoy.
There has to be a way to combine all these years of engineering with emergency response and emergency medicine. I really hope all these years and all this education wasn’t just a total waste of my time.
Sigh.
Shame I’m just not useful for anything. You’d think with all these degrees and certifications - I mean, I have OSHA 30 Construction, MSHA 48, HAZWOPER 40, HAZWOPER command, NIMS, ICS 1, 2, 7, 8 (I think I might have even done 300 and 400 when I was a cop), federal peace officer, combat life saver, blah blah blah. You’d think that someone could use me for something productive in this world, wouldn’t you?
But instead, I fill out financial reports and send out invoices. Man, I feel bad about myself. At least the combat medicine makes me feel productive and useful again. It might even be fun to assist with wilderness guide trips, sporting events, search and rescue medic, that sort of thing. If anyone would hire me. Am I too old to switch careers? I mean, no one likes the older android models of my base operating system. Wonder if that will be an issue.
Fuck. Life choices, huh?
Anyway, yeah, sorry about there not being a story, but I don’t think there’s more than a couple people out there even stopping by, so it’s hardly likely to even be noticed. I’ll try again next week. Happy COVID-Sunday.